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Sunday, 16 August 2009

  • today was a good day, love being in the city... great lunch out on a patio, listening to the fighter jets screaming by...
    I would take a hot pilot boyfriend. yes please!

Saturday, 08 August 2009

  • emotional mess as always... frustrated with life pretty much. this is not where i thought i would be in life. and i can't seem to make the changes i want, and accomplish what it is i want.
    slight bit of good news though. got one of the tests back for my dad, seems like the cancer is only in his neck again. at least it hasn't spread. the biopsy isn't until aug 11th though... and then we get to see if it's surgery or radiation or what ...again...
    all bundled up... it all gets really scary and overwhelming. wish i could fix everything. make it all better... for everyone.

Friday, 10 July 2009

  • Currently
    Please Don't Leave Me
    By Pink
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    I was half dreaming last night/this morning with Pink's "Please, don't leave me" going through my head for some reason. Then Sean rolled over and told me he was leaving. Was that some inner knowledge/desire? Or just a dumb song yet again caught on repeat in my head?
    Yet again we are back to not really knowing what is going on with us... and trying to figure it out.
    We said we would try to go and try being solely friends... as if that ever worked before. We thought we could start completely over, from square one and see where that took us. Ha, as if that ever lasts long with us, i'm not sure if we can ever just be friends.
    Yet, again I'm stuck at the fact that I am at complete loss as to what I want. I'm tired of that feeling.
    Sometimes I am so sure, as to what I think I want, only to have it change in a few hours.
    Tired of confusion. Tired. Just Tired, Period.

Wednesday, 24 June 2009

  • interesting that when drinking i come to this (seemingly at least) clarity of thought, then sober i lose the answer to whatever life puzzle i had just solved in my drunken state.



    i am feeling overwhelmed now.

Thursday, 11 June 2009

  • "Which road shall I take?" Alice asked.
    "Where do you want to go?" responded the Cheshire cat.
    "I don't know," Alice answered.
    "Then," said the cat, "it doesn't matter."

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